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“I fight to keep that small piece of me alive.” Rape and minors in adult facilities

To whomever may read and understand this,
I will start this off by saying that my name is Lakendrick Demond Davis. I am 36 years of age. I have been locked up since I was twelve years old. I am writing this because I want parents, brothers, sisters, aunt’s, uncle’s, and anyone else who want’s to know how prison is destroying the youth at a young age. You tell me how can a person fix themself to send a child to a grown man facility. The world ask can you be a product of your environment and the answer is yes. I am living proof of that. I have never been with a woman but I like women, but think on this, I been with another man who throught himself a woman. The prison that I started at was Lee Arendale State Prison A.K.A. Alto. If you was not fucking then you was the man, but if you were getting fucked then you was a bitch. This is how my life turn out. When I turned 17teen years old I was sent to general population. I was sent to what you would call a thunderstorm, where two days after I came into the dorm 5 guys came into my room and asked me was I going to fuck or fight. I was so scared that I fought out of fear and when I knew that I had no win. When things like this happen were do a child go for help. You don’t, you take the law into your own hands. Now you become a bigger threat to the people in the free world, because you are scarred and hurt. If you do not know how to deal, tell me what do you become? I will tell you, someone who is angry all the time. Someone who hates, is not sure of himself, who sees blood and want to hurt someone if he is touched wrong. He starts to force himself on others, because he is fighting a goddamn war within himself and can’t control it. Now the world is black to him and everybody is a enemy. The world says that eight out of ten will return to prison, but ask them why and what are they doing to stop it. You put kids in the savage lands and tell them to survive what will they become. Savages!!! The system will take from the youth and keep destroying their hopes and dreams until someone speaks up about it and mean it. Just think how I will react when I’m out. What good will I be to a woman, with my mind fucked up like it is? My soul is calling out for help, but I wonder will anybody answer. I am tired and want to rest and not get up, but I keep fighting cause I can’t give up and I know that God has a purpose for me. I want to help wherever I can. I do not wish for anybody else’s child to go through what me and my family has gone through. The child that I was and that is inside of me is leaving, but trying to hold on. If the child vanishes then I am dead, so I fight to keep that small piece of me alive.